My fear

My fear

“What are you afraid of?”
Snakes I tell them
There’s some truth to that, I don’t like them
But that’s a small matter

What do I really fear?
Myself
I’m afraid that I will sabotage my own life
I was restless before the war
After the war the scars make me reckless as well

I am often callous to others
My brow is furrowed as my heart is heavy
It is then that I think of myself
And neglect the ones that need me

I take strong drink
I seek laughter and pleasure
When I should be content with my lot

The restless spirit and reckless actions are like a bear inside of me
The bear roams, the bear roars
I wonder if he will one day grow quiet and rest